Late tears...

It's been a little more then a month since my Gram passed away yet today when I was going through my things to sell in a yard sale this weekend my tears came. My hubby hates clowns. He thinks they are creepy, but I love them! I have been collecting them for years. Every since my Sissy (big sister) told me that I couldn't collect porcelain dolls like her.

As I was going through my things I came to my clowns and remembered how Grammy used to give me one almost every Christmas. several of them have never been out of there box. I also found some of the things I started to get after my cousin died my Senior year of high school. Things I forgot I had. I had to take a break so I could hide in my room and cry.

I will only be selling a few of my clowns but the ones I know for sure Gram gave me are staying for now at least. The  few things I found that remind me of my cousin are the Grinch things and we will be putting those up every year for Christmas.

I have yet to visit my Grampa since the funeral...I just cant go to the house and not have Gram sitting at her table. I don't even know if I can scrapbook anymore. I need to for my girls. The few pages that I did at my house I was so excited to  bring and show Grammy what I did and get her praises on how well they where. I miss needing to help her cut out things from the cricket so she could put them in a scrapbook or a card she was making for a friend or family member.

I'll be able to move on soon...I've gone through this with others before I just didn't look up to and visit them as often and so close to their last days.

Baby number two is....

We headed to Auburn today to find out what our new baby is! We picked up my mom then headed on our way. We stopped for a bit at my hubby's moms (we were early). We decided to take our little Dawning with us. Two times ago we took her to a normal appointment to hear the baby's heart beat and she screamed the entire time! We were a tad worried she'd do it again but she also had her Nana and her Grammy-meme to keep her entertained.

We got there and went to the wrong lab, so we got new direction and head to the right one. I was told to have a full bladder to make sure they could get good pictures. I told that to the Ultra Sound lady and she said well lets see I got all gooped up and she got to looking and informed me that I did a great job at filling my bladder. Off came the goop so I could empty my bladder and then we started all over again. I was also told that my ultra sound would take 45 min! None of Dawnings ever took this long. Yet she was right!

She took her time looking at everything! She found a few of my body parts and all of this baby's! This little one has two kidneys (my family has a few people that only have one), there is a beautiful heart! We saw it several different ways all four ventricles exist! and the flaps (baby brain I forgot the names of them) are all working! We saw the spine in length and several angles from the skull. There seems to be one very healthy happy little child in my tummy!

I am sure that you are going crazy wondering what we are having and I'm taking my time because we almost didn't find out! She forgot that we wanted to know! so here are a few pictures of what we got to see then I will tell you what this little one is.

The ultra sound lady said this child has beautiful long legs....

The Feet!! Oh I have to say Dawning loves her toes! every night we snuggle and listen to some music we usually spend the first song talking about her toes. When we saw this baby's toes I got excited so that Dawning would focus. "Toes! Dawning look at your baby's toes!!" Dawing got so excited and looked at the screen and yelled "Toes! oooh Toes!!" over and over so we got a good picture of the toes.

Look at my baby! BEAUTIFUL!! Oh another really fun thing that I didn't see with Dawning was while we were watching the screen the baby punched me. I felt and saw that little arm move! I loved it!

My younger brother taught my Sisters oldest boy to do the alien peace sign thing, I remember it being a really big deal so when I saw this little one do this all I could think was wow my baby can do it in the womb! I made sure to share this with my little brother.

Alright so what everyone is waiting for....We are having....A....Girl! Honestly I was crushed to hear this but as the day went on I'm getting excited...The problem is that we keep thinking its a boy and picking out boy names and then...its a girl! Which is exciting I just keep getting all worked up thinking its a boy. Then again the way a baby goes from this tiny egg and is formed and molded into this beautiful little creature is just amazing in itself! Just knowing I helped with that and feeling this little girl inside of me wiggle and kick and punch amazes me.

I love that shes hitting hard enough for others to feel now. I cant wait for Dawning to feel her and understand even more. Today she was giving the baby raspberry kisses (we call them zerberts we got that from The Bill Cosby show). She just cant stay on my tummy long enough to feel a movement. She was showing her Auntie where the baby was (and my belly button another favorite body part!) she was kissing and hugging her baby it was so cute.

Before bed tonight instead of talking forever on her toes I told her she was going to be a big sister to a sister! I asked if she was excited (mind you its an hour past bed time) and she said, "nooo" I told her that the baby was girl just like her. I asked her if she was a girl and she nodded yes then I said and the baby is a girl too. "Nooo," she said. I am sure she doesn't get it all but she will if we keep talking about how exciting it is to be a big sister to a sister!

Our biggest problem now is to find a name! we do luckily have 5 1/2 more months to find one! phew! Personally, I would love a little that looks a bit like this momma! Not that daddy looks bad or that our Dawning is ugly cause shes is absolutely beautiful and looksjust like daddy, but I think one kid looking like momma wouldn't hurt...no red hair (black would be fine!!). Though I will definitely take and love what God gives me. I don't think God minds a little bit of hints of what we would like though....Of course He knows what we will love! God is so good! This child seems healthy and that's the most important thing I want! I can't wait to share this bundle of joy with everyone when she comes.

A new relaxing hobby!

I decided I was going to make a baby blanket for our new little one. Not knowing what it will be I decided to use mutual colors, so I went with red, white, and black. Babies see those colors first. I wanted a simple pattern that wouldn't be to bland. I didn't want a strip pattern I have tried that and failed to much work for a beginner sewer. I looked online at pictures of baby blankets and found one I loved...It just happened to be a strip pattern. I decided I was going to do it anyway!


I went shopping and this is what I found for material.

I got help from a my very good friend who is much better at sewing on how big each piece should be to make it just right. I started cutting and then sewing my projected.

In the main pattern I used the solid red and black and then the fun white, red, and black pattern. The  music is the border (I got help from my mother-in-law for that). The back is the red soft minky material.

Here is the final project!

Front

Back

I also decided to make my little Dawning a blanket but for a big girl bed! I am still working on it but the front is finished and the back is all one material so it will be a simple thing to picture I think.

Here is the material for her blanket.

Little Dawning's favorite color is yellow and she loves ducks! Because her blanket is so big and I'm so new at this I did a simple square pattern. The ducks and the yellow fleece I used as a boarder and then made a pattern with the other materials.

This will be the back.





This is the same material as the new baby's blanket yet blue. This is the softest material I have felt When we went shopping for the back of her blanket I showed her the blue minky and a yellow one. she hugged the blue one.

Here is the front of her blanket (don't mind the edges its not finished).

I have very much enjoyed working on both the kids blankets! I have a feeling that this Dawning's blanket is a bit bigger then a twin size. As I worked on her blanket she got so excited that it was difficult to pin the rows together because she wanted to sit on it and help pin it. She even got pricked a few times and still wouldn't leave them alone. I want to make more! Maybe my next big project will be one for our bed!



Potty training...

Potty training...At the beginning of the summer our little Dawning was excited to use the potty. She knew how to tell if she needed to pee as long as she was naked. Then life happened and our focus stopped being on useing a potty to taking care of my siblings. Now I fear that Dawning has lost her intereast in the potty.

I cleaned my living room today and decided I wanted to try again. I am tired of diapers...I know I have a second one on the way that will be in diapers but im goingto try something different with that one. Anyway, after the living room was cleaned including a washed floor we rewashed it another five or six times because of accidents...and no peeing on the potty. She tinkled on the potty then got up and peed on the floor. I finally had it and put her in a diaper. Almost good timing because she pooped. Not a mess I like to clean up. she napped and then we tried again.

While she had supper I put her on her potty with a tray in front of her. She PEED! and has been sitting on the potty often since. I got so excited and showed herwhat she did and got hugs and high fives! She also got very excited and almost put her head in her potty to see what she had done!

Goal: have Dawning potty trained before the new one comes.
Reality: Once a day on the potty will do just fine for now!

It's not that im so tired of diapers. changing them and cleaning them really dont bother me its the diaper rashs that shes getting. I feel like she has a new one every other week or so.

Baby dolls

After we went hiking we needed to stop to grab a few groceries. Little Dawning did such a good job all day we took her over to the toy isle there we found lots of dolls. Now before today Dawning didnt play with dolls. We found a doll that was almost as big as her and one that was a normal doll size. I wish I had pictures to show you how funny she looked carrying a giant doll and a little doll around. She wanted me to carry her with these dolls it was very hard to do. She then tried to walk to show her daddy what she found. She fell flat on well..the dolls. Daddy said no to getting a doll because she hasnt shown interest in them before (and we have bought her a few that she hasnt touched). I told her we could go home and shop for a doll in her room from her mommas collection.

We lined them up and she found three that she loved. Travis to the left up there and the twins which is the one in thr front and his sister which Dawning already took.

She had a blast playing with her babies.

I showed her how to put her babies to bed and cover them up. She added the second baby and covered there faces. 

She tried hard to care all three of them. she kept dropping them and saying "uh oh" and then picking them up.

She then put them in this bouncer and gave them some love...there is two babies under her. 

Here is her little family!

She also tried to go to bed with her babies and got stuck. Daddy said he might buy her a dolly next time.

Hiking trip!

We set off for our first hiking trip with our little one. Our plan was to hike up Table rock Mountain. We thought we passed it so we made a small stop at Moose cave trail.

We were very excited about this hike. Then we got started and then finished in about 20 min. It was the start of our nice hike. We got into the car and headed down the road a littler farther.

We found Table Rock and started on our way. I thought I remembered this trail, but I was wrong.

We found a moose track on our way.

We hiked for about 10 minutes and needed to take a gummie break. Then we walked a littler farther and this is what we came to.

All up hill! Hiking used to be so much fun now it feels like exercise. It is not so easy to hike with a little one on  the front and a bigger little one on my back. The hubby had to take over after a bit.

We attempted to let her walk on her own. That lasted  a few time for a very short time.

This is the last picture of our hike because this momma got to tired to finish the hike. We started back down and had lunch half way down. Then went grocery shopping. See what happened in the next blog.



Help! Headaches!

I am about 17 weeks...I think. My morning sickness has stopped as long as I take a sleeping pill and 100mg of vitamin B6 every night. If I forget I am then sick all day with at least one real trip to the bathroom loosing whatever I had just eaten. On the other hand I am having these terrible headaches that wont go away. Now I am drinking plenty at least according to a few dehydration tests I know. Tylenol is all I'm allowed to have yet it does nothing to make my head stop hurting. I'm eating enough as well.

I know that the eyes change during pregnancy but what is there to do about it? I cant afford to by glasses just for another 6 months and then they will change back?.

Maybe it has nothing to do with my eyes? The headaches started a few weeks ago when Gram was really ill and I picked up extra responsibilities with moms kids. A non stop stress headache that should have stopped when the stress did right?

I am finally home for the week and things seem to be back to normal. I have my little girl back! That was the longest five days without her. Shes safe (not that her Grammy would let anything happen to her) her diaper rash is even gone. So if its stress what am I stressed about?